Easter, here again. A time for the blind to see!
Those of you who have read Section 2 of my story in full, have seen the latest updates I left on my website of my story. I encourage everyone to read that section again, as I have added a few chapters, and made some changes to the existing ones. I hadn’t posted anything since my birthday in February. I had had two warnings, which you can read about in detail in the articles before this one. The warnings took place according to the principle of Lucifer - Satan - Antichrist, the 3 evil forces I write about on my website. Rudolf Steiner calls them Lucifer - Ahriman - Asuras. Lucifer and Satan are only evil to the immature or undeveloped mind and therefore, in maturing, we learn to integrate and transcend, or balance, these forces by walking a middle path, which is known as the path of Christ in esoteric circles. The Antichrist force, however, is realistic evil, but humanity will have to learn to integrate this force as well. And you can count on facing this greatest evil force if you walk the path of Christ. This process is about learning to deal with realistic danger. I had to deal with such realistic danger early on in my life, through the dangerous disapproving behavior of my father. That’s often already difficult for an adult to deal with, but for a child it is even more impossible, and that’s why I also have a history of therapy. Only later in my life did I find out that the whole world is actually a kind of therapeutic setting in which people are treated so that the development of humanity is guided in the right direction. If people form a problem for progress, they are “taken over,” as I call it. Their vibrational frequency suddenly changes completeley, and will be under the control of the ruling powers. On the outside, this can often be seen in a total personality change, where one suddenly makes totally different choices, and exhibits a whole glow-up or glow-down. And in this way the ruling powers working behind the scenes maintain control over the development of humanity. Whoever has something to say and works to create is made a target, but persisting to keep creating is exactly how one can also stay alive when you’re made a target. Because the very act of producing, regardless of the opposition you face, ensures that you are protected, as paradoxical as that must sound.
The warnings I received, several months ago, as I said, showed exactly the pattern of the three evil forces. Lucifer, then, is the first warning. Satan is one step more evil and constitutes the second and final warning. And then if you screw up one more time, you get the Antichrist over you, which is the third and most evil force, upon which your life is terminated, whereupon someone from the Antichrist group takes over your body, imitating your personality, which is called ‘mimicry’ in English. I didn’t screw up a third time. This has to do with the fact that I used to receive very little criticism during the time that parents should be critical of you, which is the influence of Satan that we all carry with us, but I did receive a lot of Antichrist energy, which is an evil one step stronger than Satan, and too much for a young child to bear. I was forced to listen to this terrible danger, which now has been my salvation, as I didn’t fuck up a third time, after getting the two warnings of Lucifer and Satan. I somewhat expected it, and hinted at it briefly in the last chapter of Section 2, that it might not come as far as I was afraid of, and that turns out to be true. That’s positive on one hand, because I’m still walking around alive now, but on the other hand it’s also a disappointment that all the hard stuff isn’t over yet. So for the past few months, I’ve been doing mostly relaxing things! Mainly computer games, so I can find myself again.
But in recent weeks it seems like nothing is running the way it should. Computers give me nothing but error messages, nothing works the way it should. All the software you download is full of errors. And I find myself ranting more and more when things don’t go the way they should. If I also take my medication too late, which are heavy sedatives, I don’t recognize myself anymore, as far as how I behave. Cause I’m cursing my computer, like I shouldn’t. What I have experienced so far that happened, when I had such moods, though always in a slightly different way, was that there were going to be casualties in the outside world. Because if you can’t integrate your own negative energy, then it projects itself outward, and that very thing you are so afraid of starts to play out around you. In my case, that is fear of being destroyed, and fear of destroying others. I got a message from my brother this morning that my nephew has broken his arm again, and if this is the beginning of my environment slowly being eaten up again, then I want to make it very clear once again, that I still do not accept this, no matter how it will turn out. Another example was when my mother pointed out a bad spot on her head that bothered her, this weekend. That could also be the beginning of the crumbling of my environment, and I don’t accept that either. I want to protect my environment, whether the people around me are taken over or not, I don’t give a shit. I will not allow everything to crumble prematurely. Because that is how this Antichrist force works. It peels off your ego, eating up everything around you. It is pretended by some people that it is physical monsters that really eat you, to which some people are very sensitive, but actually it isn’t physical at all. The phenomenon of eating and being eaten is a psychological process, and everyone will more or less have to deal with it during this time. And it’s nonsense that you can’t influence that. That is precisely what many people fail to see.
It is a rather tense time. In the U.S., Trump is in power, mostly respecting his own conservative culture. He mostly sees evil in the foreigner, and good in the self. Opposite him are the progressive oikophobes, who see more evil in the self (which they see especially in Trump), and good in the foreigner. The reality is that both the self and the foreign can go to extremes, and thus it is important that we all keep each other in balance, which is happening plenty in the world. If one faction rules for a while, and people get disappointed, then the opposite faction gets room for a while, and so it alternates. Many people have no faith whatsoever that humanity is learning, but I would say: be the example yourself, that humanity does learn. The question is really more about how long we have time to learn, a question I still don’t have an answer to. The Pope also died on Easter, and there are those who have always said he would be the last Pope. So I’m very curious, what will happen. It’s as big a question for me as it is for everybody else. Some people are saying that an Antichrist is going to rise, first dead, and then alive again after a few days, but then taken over by an evil walk-in from the Antichrist group, which some people opposedly call the second coming of Christ. Should we count on that now that the pope has died? Or will this happen with Trump, for example? Or are these rumors more symbolic of what I am describing: that people are being “taken over”…? And that Christ is the light part of God, and Antichrist the shadow part of God, but that they are both taken over by to the same principle to rise again from the death.
It has become completely clear to me, as far as I am concerned, that a development is taking place behind the scenes through the interactions people are having among themselves. I am a living witness to that. And I can still see content creators on YouTube being taken over, each day. Big sudden character changes are visible in many people. The content creators are the people who create works in this day and age. And they are being targeted first. That is still happening. When will this stop? Is the goal really to take over all of humanity? Is that what is meant by The Great Reset? And do the taken over people themselves perhaps not even realize that they radiate Antichrist energy? That would be completely miraculous. Then surely it is only part of the truth to distinguish them as a separate group, who meet fellow human beings with conscious evil intent. No, then that evil intention is not even there. Then it is simply unconsciousness, which creates a semblance of separateness. Then there are no separate evil forces in the world at all; we are just ourselves. Then you can describe the groups in terms of energy, but then they are not separate groups walking around and taking over bodies. But our frequencies can simply be influenced behind the scenes, as well as switched off, or set free, which in fact happens during the ‘takeovers’. This is really miraculous then, especially if it all happens automatically, for example if you are at the end of your rope. That’s also the way that would leave the least evidence behind. Who knows, maybe it works that way! An orgasm is an example of such an automatic thing which is equally miraculous. Maybe the takeover is also such an automatic thing that is triggered when you get into a certain state. Then it is not surprising that it leaves no trace. It makes me once again relegate all the great stories about aliens, and vampires, and werewolves, to the realm of fables.
But overall certainty I do not have on anything. So I just try to put all those questions aside and focus on relaxing. But something tells me that the storm that Trump talked about in his previous term (“it’s the calm before the storm”) has yet to happen… And for that I try to hold my nerves. I hope the next few years will give me the answers I so long for!
Concluding, I share a wonderful song by a band that is dear to my heart. Every year at Easter, I think back to this song, and the year 2005, in which I heard it for the first time. I had just come out of my clinical therapy since a few months and was feeling great! This song brings me back every year to that good feeling and the strength I felt back then.
