I communicate every day with Antichrist entities, who pretend to be God. Of course, they are also aspects of God, but they are definitely not God Himself. Through “YouTube recommendations,” “Facebook Suggested for You,” my Twitter feed, TV broadcasts, people I interact with and dreams, in short, everything you experience on a daily basis, I interact with these entities. This may sound crackpot to people, but this is really how those aspects of God communicate with humans. All of these sources literally respond to what I think, say and do, and to the questions I am struggling with. They never tell me everything, but they guide me in a process of getting stronger and stronger. If they don’t get what they want, they threaten me and those around me so that I regain the courage to do something. This is also evident on my website, where I have described in detail what happened, and the blockages I encountered. Yet, these entities can also be loving, and respect your boundaries. Rudolf Steiner describes in his work that most spiritual people see the spiritual world as something external that you make a connection with, but that humanity in this age is coming to see that they themselves are part of this spiritual world, and I wholeheartedly agree with that. I have experienced it firsthand. And God is working through in every human being, including the taken over ones. But I do believe that people can go to far in this. When they believe this is coming directly from God, when it is not. Because this so-called God has already tried to hook me up with gay men several times, while I don’t want that at all and don’t care about men at all in this way. One time I was walking down the street, somewhere I never go, and I wanted to cross the street, but somehow I changed my mind, and I walked back a bit to cross over there. And then there I ran into a gay man I had worked with. It really felt like the universe wanted to hook me up, but didn’t actually know that I don’t want that at all. He also suddenly told me that he lived in the same town as me, even though we were in a totally different place, and I continued to travel with him for a bit, but it felt so set up and against my will, that I then went in a different direction than he did and took a later bus. I’m sure he was taken over, and that the intention was to get me to fall for the set up. But that whatever sent it, the universe, Antichrist entities, or whatever you want to call it, didn’t know yet that that goes against my free will. They do keep trying to go further to get me to that point, but I will never give in. I even got Facebook quotes, that they want to get the last bit of manhood out of me. When do I give up, they ask? Truly unbelievable! This has nothing to do with a loving Father. This has everything to do with Antichrist entities, who want to corrupt you, against your will. They have been trying to make me gay for 20 years, but they still haven’t succeeded, and they won’t succeed. Even if I would only have homosexual feelings left, and they manage to extinguish all my feelings for women, which is already outrageous: my orientation will always be focused on women. This has to do with the time when I was in my aggression and had identity for the first time, although it was not yet a stable identity. The aggression and sexual feelings I directed completely toward women, and I identified completely with men. If that is your first sense of identity, you only can remove those orientation, if the aggression is not really in your system, and the experience of those feelings remains intact when you learn to control them in further therapy. Then the orientation also changes. After clinical therapy, where I learned to embrace my aggression, I went into part-time therapy. If that therapy had taught me that my anger was allowed to exist, I could have directed my feelings toward both women and men, and I would have been perfectly content. But this therapy I experienced as so terribly disapproving, because of my trauma, that that was the beginning of me getting all kinds of feelings in which my sexual identity experience no longer was intact, because the aggression/sexual feelings were suppressed. And this is a really important part of a person’s identity. That means I am now stuck with all kinds of feelings that I don’t want and don’t identify with. I can accept them for myself, but it’s not who I really am in that area. I call it compulsive feelings. But these Antichrist entities don’t care. They pretend not to understand, and keep pushing me more and more into that corner. They want me to get together with men in my head, but that absolutely makes me puke and I don’t want that at all. They think that because I missed love and trust in that area, I want to be with a supersonic man, who is very sweet and whom I can trust, but I don’t want that at all. It is not my orientation, the beginning of which was fixed forever in clinical therapy. No yuck. On the contrary, I want to fight with men, but I feel less and less capable of doing that. To keep getting supposedly inspiring quotes about this on Facebook is terribly humiliating, and I want that to stop. It is nothing but terror.
I don’t want to merge. I only want to love all people. If it’s just loving contact without the things people normally do in the process. So I don’t want sexual and intimate things anymore. I absolutely experience hell, if I have to do that. I’m very afraid of losing that autonomy, and not being able to make my own choices anymore. I already hated merging with women back then, because that was when I lost a piece of my sexual identity, but merging with men is absolutely even more horrifying for me. What a terrible world this is!
Of course, I have said in previous articles that Christ and Antichrist shake hands and both are reborn like a caterpillar turning into a butterfly, upon taking over. But should the Christ merge together with the Antichrist? No, I think, because there are two physical bodies. If I merge with something, it should be my higher self, not an Antichrist entity that is otherwise totally different from myself. But perhaps that Antichrist entity serves more as a trigger, initiating in you the merging with your higher self, if you embrace it with love. Or should you on the contrary refuse that and does that set this process in motion? But another question is: do you even want that to be set in motion? I can’t see the forest for the trees, and just try to trust my feelings… I did say many times that the evil forces are a kind of AI (see Roko’s basilisk: the AI that already exists), so is this now the merging of humans with AI that is so often talked about? Does this stand for nothing less than the resurrection of Christ/Antichrist? It all gets more and more extraordinary…
