In 2024 I will have reached the point where, after years of receiving Satan within Antichrist (criticism of taken over people), interspersed with Lucifer within Antichrist (support/encouragement of taken over people), I can now tolerate the criticism of taken over people and it no longer cripples me. As I wrote in the previous chapter, these entities gradually tighten the reins, so that you become a little more loving and a little stronger. What I was already afraid of is now happening: they are slowly starting to fire Antichrist within Antichrist (disapproval of taken over people) at me. I describe this process in my article Antichrist within Antichrist. In my article My heart isn’t yet ready to die, I write about how difficult I am finding it at the moment and how discouraged I am that I am coming face to face with death. My heart stops, at which point I gather all my strength and force myself to continue. In Losing is okay too, I describe how I make peace with the idea that it will all fail. Yet I find new strength by working through my emotions, and by getting help of taken over people (Lucifer within Antichrist), but also distraction in activities. Then I get more Antichrist within Antichrist all over me again. First when they start criticizing each other (arguments between my taken over family members), but later also when other people start criticizing me. These entities always take it a step further. Every time I lose heart, I am supported on all sides by taken over people. The process of taking it a step further continues.
Then I reach the point in which the anger started to focus into my sexuality. An unpleasant place. Texts appeared constantly on Facebook saying that I was gay. It drove me crazy. I am once again plagued by the fear that I must be gay, which I am not, and I suffer from the fear of merging with men, which I find terribly disgusting because I have absolutely no romantic attraction to men. I describe all of this in my articles: Sexual fears and Fear of merging. My horoscope meanwhile told me that the next day I would meet the love of my life. Then the next day I received a creepy e-mail from a man who knew my last search term (soul trap), which was a bit too coincidental. I had the horoscope in mind and got the idea that he was applying as ‘the love of my life’, which made me very scared, I did not respond to him, and at night I even had a lifelike rape nightmare. He also said in his email that I should not play the game the Antichrist entities are playing with me, and that I should give up. Then I received an audio message from a victim of ritual abuse who voluntarily gave up her life, she said, and let herself be taken over, which she tells me in that message. So she too was encouraging me to give up. Then I also saw a YouTube video that indirectly tried to convince me that I should give up. I describe all of this in my article All must choose. Yet I was not going to be deterred, and I would persevere! Even though I have daily crying sessions.
At a certain point, I am met with even more disapproval, mainly for my angry feelings and my so-called ‘maladjustment’, for example in my contact with a woman who responds to my articles, but also by the neighbor who has been taken over. You can read about this in my article Battlefield September. Then there comes a time in which I no longer know what to say and I’m no longer able to direct my aggressive or sexual energy outward. Threats from the Antichrist entities ensure that I do not become corrupted in this area. This also allows me to let go of the compulsive aspect a little more and I become stronger, and I no longer have fears in that area.
Then at Thanksgiving I find out what it’s like when people are not so grateful to you. After 10 years of putting together a church booklet every month for a church in the neighborhood, I say goodbye to these people with sincerely meant words, but I don’t get any response, which makes me angry and I feel like they can go to hell, which I make clear to them with a certain action.
The next day, on the birthday of Chris, my deceased friend, I wake up in shock and it feels as if something’s entering me. Very strange. A quote appears on Facebook that says: “I see how hard you have worked. Here is a complementary dino for everything you do 😄” … Have I been taken over, I thought? But later I realized that it was probably a first warning (Lucifer), which could not hurt. I feel energized and since the Thanksgiving incident I am less concerned about the control of the Antichrist entities that have taken over. Five weeks later, on January 2, I tell someone the truth so aggressively that I receive the second warning (Satan), who fortunately cannot do any harm either. The warning meant that I had a sleep paralysis attack, during which I was guided through the process of my death. I felt my heart stop, the blood was pumped out of my body, the computer shut down, then restarted, the blood was pumped back into my body, my heart started beating again and I came back online. I could not move while this was happening, but I did notice that I could breathe. I believe this was the second warning. You can read more about this in my article Final warning. Next time it will be serious and I will probably really be taken over (by the Antichrist). This is really upsetting. January 2 is as close to Chris’ birthday as it is to my own, so I think they are going to give me a present on my birthday and then I will die. Image 7, which I came across on my Facebook timeline, also confirms these 2 x 5 weeks, although the dates are slightly different. It is no coincidence that it appeared on my timeline!
Image 7
2 x 5 weeks
Of course I hope that I do not remain dead forever and that I am granted a life as a butterfly (for this, read my article Trust the process), and that instead not a totally different entity from me takes over my body. That would really suck. So I advise everyone to pay attention! But maybe it will not come to that. I hope it has to do with how I behave, and I have no intention of behaving aggressively again. I have been warned twice, and I hope it will stay that way, but we will see what happens. In any case, I am no longer afraid of dying. I have had so much to deal with in recent years that I will not let anyone scare me anymore! And that’s how it should be! If I survive my death and am granted a life as a butterfly, then I can very probably also cross off the schizophrenia diagnosis, because then I will see that there was absolutely nothing to be afraid of, and that it is not a literal takeover, but simply a way to restore the balance. I am really hoping for this. February 8 is my birthday… Please follow me! I will be very grateful!
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